moving things along

Today I made an appointment to hire the attorney whom I consulted with a couple months ago. The receptionist had me come pick up a packet of information to work on and complete before our actual appointment in 3 weeks. I have to wonder if the sheer volume of paperwork---much of it repetitive---has ever deterred anyone from following through on their dissolution. Perhaps that's part of the idea in having so many forms to fill out with redundant information?

As I'm thumbing through it all, most of it financial information, it hits me how the last 16 years of being in the work force boils down to a few numbers on a page. Assets and debts. Children and property. He gets/ she gets.

My eyes blur as I start thinking about the bottom line. As in---making life count, not having a lot of stuff. There has to be more. I wish, honestly, there was going to be more material stuff. Maybe I shouldn't admit that, but it's true. I'd love to walk away from this able to fully furnish a home for my children and I. More than that, I wish---no, I hope--that at the very least, I can walk away remembering the true bottom line.

Today I watched in silence as people passed me by,

And I strained to see if there was something hidden in their eyes;

But they all looked at me as if to sayLife just goes on.

The old familiar story told in different ways,

Make the most of your own journey from the cradle to the grave;

Dream your dreams tomorrow because todayLife must go on.

CHORUS

But there’s more to this life than living and dying,

More than just trying to make it through the day;

More to this life, more than these eyes alone can see,

And there’s more than this life alone can be.

Tonight he lies in silence staring into space,

And looks for ways to make tomorrow better than today,

But in the morning light it looks the same;

Life just goes on.

He takes care of his family,

he takes care of his work,

And every Sunday morning he takes his place at the church;

And somehow he still feels a need to search,

But life just goes on.

(chorus)

So where do we start to find every part

Of what makes this life complete;

If we turn our eyes to Jesus we’ll find

Life’s true beginning is there at the cross where

He died.He died to bring us . . .(chorus)

Steven Curtis Chapman